I mean, it’s a pretty hard thing to understand if you don’t know about aphantasia. Since we can’t know what other people experience in their mind, what we perceive is considered ‘normal’ because that’s all we know.
I didn’t realize I had aphantasia until I was 18. Doesn’t mean I suddenly became aphantasic at that same time.










I got recommended a video that introduced the term to me and it was a very jarring realization.
Personally I’ve always struggled with expressing my thoughts in general. Before I learned about aphantasia I had started saying it was like I think in concepts instead of words or pictures. I know what I’m thinking and it’s not like it’s a vague idea, but for whatever reason actually translating it into a real language is really hard for me. I have an easier time writing out my thoughts than I do speaking them at least.
The most I can visualize are a few ‘vivid’ images that I spent a lot of time curating, usually from listening to music or remembering a dream I wrote down. Even then, When I try to think about those little exceptions, it’s still only a tiny fraction of the whole image that I can really come up with. Thinking about it now, it’s super weird to describe! I got super intro writing after I figured out I had aphantasia (shattered my hopes of being able to draw. But that doesn’t mean aphantasic people can’t draw. I just learned how to draw incorrectly and it screwed me over) and I like to think I’m decent at describing visuals despite all this.
To use the gif as an example, I can really only imagine the frame, moving images are practically impossible for me. And it’s really only the sillohuete I can make out.
I also realized I’m face blind too, and part of me wonders how much that correlates to aphantasia