All I do is think. I spend the majority of my time alone so i’m constantly alone with my thoughts. The distractions aren’t working anymore. It’s maddening. I think about my life as it exists, my life as I wish it existed, my fears, my hopes, and anything else you could possibly conceive. I have OCD so a lot of my thoughts revolve around sexuality, identity, and more existential concepts. If you have OCD you probably understand at least some of what i’m talking about. I just want it to stop. I can’t focus on anything, even videogames which I very much enjoyed. I just sit and rot. Don’t even get me started on the compulsive porn binging and jerk sessions. I really don’t know what to do. In case anyone is worried I’m not in any danger. I just can’t keep this to myself anymore. I wish I could just shut my brain off and take a long needed rest.
Hey dude, I dont know what OCD is, but some problems you described seem to be from a single source I would assume.
Wasting time watching porn.
If you want to have more time to spend on your hobbies, If you dont want to think and lust about aritifical porn, If you want to escape porn and get yourself busy reading something.
Then I recommend you to read this: https://easypeasymethod.org/
It helped me so much, changed my perspective around porn, and gave me more free time to use on personal hobbies.
Honestly man, give it a read!!
You will have something to busy yourself with, which I assume might relieve you from thinking about your regrets. AND will help you become a better version of yourself.
All the best dude, I hope this first step encourages you to do more.
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