Even when it’s serious, it’s just a shitty situation. I know everybody has to take care of themselves and that’s why I try not to go to work when sick but most often that’s what I’d like to do.
Like I’m a socialist and all but I hate the situation of talking to my boss and telling them I can’t come in :(
That’s the gaze. You have been trained to feel this way. Your brain has developed neural circuitry to create this feeling and you did not consciously choose for that to happen. The adults in your life, both the one’s close to you and the ones who can only reach you through media, have chosen this for you and created the conditions for your conditioning.
It takes practice to break this conditioning. But you can do it. You already know intellectually that it’s wrong. Take the next step and use that knowledge to understand what’s happening in your brain and then counter it until the circuitry changes to match the truth as you know it.