Analysis: You have apetites or desires that are relatively unexplored and poorly understood by even you. You fear a journey of exploration will be frowned upon by most, especially your partner. You fear rejection and being ostrasized, and are happy to accomodate what you perceive as a normie’s life for the sake of peace. You can be the person you think you need to be.

But somewhere deep down, the question lingers - Can I explore these apetites or desires? Can I share them with someone special? Who, when and how can this best be safely explored?

I have no clue what the desire(s) are. It could be anything really. Anything from some freaky kink or fetish, but it could just as easily be a desire to explore a new cuisine, or genre of film or even to pursue a special hobby or alternative lifestyle. I mean desire/apetite in the broadest sense of the word. A craving only hinted at.